All my life I have been different.
I refused to wear jeans till I was 14. I wanted to mow the grass, take auto mechanics, and play the drums. While I would not have dared follow my heart very far growing up I am sure my father felt the strain of having to keep me "in my place."
I always felt like a rebel without a cause. Little did I know the cause I searched for was me. I needed to champion myself. Save myself from the rat race. The mundane. The sameness. The cookie-cutter life.
Over the years I have done many things, been many places, and met many people. I am happy to report to you that after many years of searching it is a glorious thing to be right here with myself.
I had loved the peasant/gypsy/boho look from a far for years. I had even played with some ideas of skirts and dresses I would love to make but it did not all come together until recently. I was lost in the rabbit hole that is Pintrest and stumbled across the Lagenlook style of dressing again. I decided to take my affection one step further and searched for Lagenlook groups on Facebook.
That is when I found
Sewing the Tina Givens, Lagenlook and Boho Styles a group of wonderfully talented and supportive women who dress the way I wanted to. It was love! I read and drooled over the amazing items these gals were not only making but wearing. The most wonderful thing seemed to happen in the photos where the sewist was wearing her clothes. The smiles seemed to come from their souls. Little did I know that I had found my tribe. Some of us gals need community...a village.
I wanted the feelings behind those glorious smiles but needed the courage to wear the clothes. About this time a friend needed someone to keep her company while she cleaned out her closet. I came home that day with most of what she was letting go of. There were so many dresses of various lengths and I was giddy with possibility.
For the next few days I tried piecing outfits together in my mind. Surely I could layer some of her gifts with some of my things and come up with something. Right? As usual, I over-thought it to the point of anxiety.
Finally there came a moment of truth. My niece asked me to a day of lunch and shopping. She would love me if I showed up wearing a burlap bag so I decided it was time to either embrace this new way of self expression or just let it go.
I went to my closet, picked a dress, put it on over a top. Then I looked for something to layer under. I had no bloomers at that point so I put on a pair of beige capris. And a brown skirt. By now I was giddy. I found my favorite brown boots and a necklace. For a final touch I pinned my skirt and dress up a little on the side with a piece from one of my favorite Old Man Shirts.
Something magical happened that day. I have never felt more me than I did right then. I walked with my head high. I felt light. Free. Happy. Delighted.
That was 6 weeks ago and since then I have been sewing clothing that will help me feel that same way. STTGLABS has had two sew-alongs thus far. The first was for the Tina Givens* Zelda. I made her from a pink sheet and love her dearly. Right now we are making the
Marama Coat by Pearl Red Moon.
I made the TG* Bloom from a sheet but she did not fit me. I was able to give her to a friend and because I have more of the same sheet I will make another.
I have made the TG Plinka pants and love them. I have made a green Zelda from a sheet and she is glorious.
I have also worn more of the clothes my friend gave me. I love how I feel when I dress to who I am. I feel feminine and beautiful and strong and capable and giddy. What more could I ask for?
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Be encourged: Do something today that scares you. Remember that fear of something is almost always worse than the reality.
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Yours,
Phyllis aka Queen Sheet